He is All Knowing

Around 2016 I asked God to take away my dreams and really shut down a lot on my prayer life. To give some background I am fully aware of my spiritual gifts, and one of them is my dreams and God always tends to send me people (women) with like experiences to mine for me to talk to. I have random people that just pour their whole life and heart out to me, and it isn't because I always look approachable. I call these encounters appointments from God. But when I am not focused spiritually all my gifts shut down. So with that being said I was really irritated with my prayers over my personal life. It just seems like years of prayers just floating in the air. I even redirected it and still to no avail, but it seemed I was getting confirming dreams but they never manifested so I asked God to take the dreams and fell off a lot spiritually. Not so much that I didn't pray at all but it was nothing like normal. When I asked for prayers to go it's like it all got wiped away. Well, about a month and a half ago I realized that I am truly in a good headspace. I realized that God was not ignoring my prayers but was actually answering them the way He does, in His time, and beyond what I asked for in various parts of my life. I also see that if He would have answered the way I wanted I would not be the woman I am right now. My husband is an absolute blessing of course to me, but I also see the picture so much clearer for my life. When I came to that realization I said, "Ok God I'm ready, send me my next appointment!" I started back praying more diligently, my husband prays with me and for me and my growth. I haven't EVER had a mate to do that, and I definitely need it. He even prays over my Godly assignments. We have decided to be more diligent in praying over the children because we recognize at their various ages they all have struggles. But I also have started purposely talking to God every day, interceding in prayer beyond my immediate family. I have three people I pray specifically over after I asked them did they have something they want me to pray over, and God sent me my assignment! I forgot how focused and leveled I feel when I purposely seek God. I look forward to continued growth for me and my husband. I wrote this to not say it was ok to shut down but to let anyone know that we all hit rough spots. We all wonder if God is listening to us when we don't get the answers we THINK we should. I am far from a picture of perfection, I still have to purposely seek God and His wisdom, even when I don't feel like it. I am writing this to say God is waiting on you to realize He has your best interest in mind even when there is a delay, and to guide you in to your purpose. Don't give up like I did because even though He may not answer the way you want, His answer will exceed your desires.