Life is an AMAZING unpredictable journey that is filled with
unexpected twists and turns.
Growing up I always looked forward to having a man to sweep
me off of my feet, I never wanted to be alone.
I married my husband
at 21 years old; I was head over heels in love with him!
That first year our son was born and he was adorable!
I felt truly blessed that God blessed me with a man that
loved me no matter what my past was
I needed him to make me feel complete, and whole in my life….
Of course we had our share of problems…but everyone does right?
Our son was a few months or so old when my husband went to prison,
he was gone for two years
I worked hard to take care of our son and to have a nice
place for him to come home to this time we were going to come out on top
This would be our happily ever
After about a year we started to argue a lot about but we
always made up and vowed to stay together no matter what
Later I found out my husband was experimenting with
different drugs but he assured me he was just having fun and it wasn’t something
he had to do and could stop at any point
I believed he had control of his habits until he stopped
coming home for days at a time, leaving me stranded begging for rides home or
walking.
There were times he would pawn the car to his supplier to
drive until his debt was paid.
I kept it all a secret because I was ashamed to tell my
family or friends what was going on…. so I covered for him and pretended
everything was normal.
Eventually I started to believe I should leave…but I found out
that I was pregnant and decided to give it one more try because I was convinced
that was a sign to stay
He even went to rehab but when he got out soon after he started
back using again; I went into premature labor at 30 weeks
He took me to the hospital…went to move the car and didn’t come
back…I was scared and alone…and ashamed..I became hysterical…so the hospital staff
called my mom
I was ashamed that my mom saw me like that, but she came and
sat until I was calm and the labor had stopped…I was put on bed rest to keep
the baby healthy
I had our daughter 6 weeks later and she was healthy and
happy and beautiful. We moved for the 6th time out of 7 years….
The arguing continued, I finally decided it was over and
felt God would understand, and I started to plan to leave but I still loved him
and had doubts if I was doing the right thing
He stopped by on what would have been our 7th
anniversary August 28th 2004… high and angry at me for not calling
him….he accused me of sleeping with other men…things escalated
That night my husband beat, raped and held me hostage while
my kids were sleeping in the next room, threatening to kill me and my family if
I ever left or kept him away from the kids
That was the longest night of my life I spent praying for
what to do to make it out of the situation and keep the kids safe.
He eventually passed out and we were able to sneak out of
the house and call the police after I made it to my parents house.
When they got to the house he had taken a bottle of pills when
he realized what he had done and I was gone.
I went to the emergency room, and the police let him go, I pressed
charges and got a restraining order, and went to stay at my parent’s house
He called me and apologized for what happened, and God
placed it in my heart to forgive him, but not to stay married to him. I still
pressed charges.
I went on with my life. God blessed me with a job and a
place to live on my own. I had peace of mind. He began to restore my mind, an
spirit.
HE SAVED MY LIFE
HE RENEWED ME!
HE GAVE ME PEACE!
HE SHOWED ME LOVE!
GOD DID ALL OF THIS FOR ME!
AND HE WILL DO IT FOR YOU!
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