Are You Somebody?

Earlier this year me and my mom had the privilege of going to see President Obama inaugurated for a second term. We knew this was history in the making and probably would be a long time before we would witness something as monumental. We wrote our state congressman to get tickets so we could get closer view of things instead of just standing around. It was amazing!!! We were right by the sidewalk so we could see all the famous people walking by and some would stop and take pictures with and for us. Of course there were people of all kinds there. An actor stopped and was taking pictures and this woman yells out “IS HE SOMEBODY???”  The actor that was initially bright and happy instantly turned cold and aloof. It was obvious he was offended by her so rudely yelling that out. I was offended for him so I could imagine how he felt. When she yelled that out I instantly thought what would make him “somebody”? I mean isn’t everyone “somebody”? I may not be famous or rich but I consider myself “somebody”.  If you base who you are on what others think of you or your status in society then you are possibly setting yourself up to be let down. We have all seen those tragic stories of people that were famous and rich but still miserable because they lacked self esteem and worth.  People thought they were living the life while all the while they were suffering in a private hell because they didn’t feel they were anybody special. Do you feel like you are anybody special? So many times we don’t feel special because someone else doesn’t when it’s our job individually to see the good in ourselves. So many people are broken on the inside and seek others to fill the voids that are within. I was that way at some point if I could just have a man I would be happy, if I just could have a good group of people around me I could be happy, if I could be accepted I would be happy. What I realized as I grew which happened a lot after 30 is that I can’t count on anyone else to fulfill me. Anybody else is an enhancement not an all that beats all. If my happiness is based on if someone is there or no, or if someone else behaves a certain way I will be miserable more than not. We all know that people can be flaky at best and if my self esteem was based on that I would never be happy with myself. I also find it unfair to expect any one person to be your happiness. If you can’t be happy with yourself then how in the world can you expect anyone else to? I make it a point to be my biggest cheerleader, first to compliment me, and pat myself on my own back. I don’t expect the man I love to complete me but to enhance my completeness. I know this all sounds like common sense but so many of us don’t get these simple things and wonder why even when we get that man or whatever we are still not happy. Start from within….love you first…and know that you are “somebody” even when nobody but you knows it.

GROWING SPIRIT

GROWING SPIRIT

I was baptized when I was nine years old. I will never forget the excitement I felt that I was saved and going to heaven because I accepted Jesus in my life. When you are a little kid it’s very exciting to tell everyone what you know and how you are saved. Anyone that I have ever known that was raised in church went thru a phase of “IM GROWN NOW AND NO ONE CAN MAKE ME GO!!!” This includes me. When I turned 18 church was a hit or miss for me. I may go if I felt like it or not, which most times was not. I did this for about two years or so. I really got back into it more when my husband and I got married and then got shaky again mid way through. By the time we were going thru our divorce I knew that I needed to grow not just for me but to set a good foundation for the kids as well. I stepped outside of my box and started to attend a different church than I grew up in. This is when I started to flourish in my growth. This is when I started to have the gift of dreaming. Being a spiritual dreamer is one of the most amazing but frustrating things that has happened in my growth. I remember the first years or so I would have dreams about people and get messages that I was supposed to get. At first it would be just dreams and as I continued to grow I would get woke up at night to pray or hear a message for someone else. It made me absolutely nuts initially because there is nothing like getting woke up at an odd hour from a sound sleep for SOMEONE ELSE!!! I would moan and groan and complain about it with God until I realized that did no good and until I did just what I was supposed to do there was no rest for me and if that meant God would wake me up at 3am every night then so be it until I was obedient to what He wanted me to do. This was so difficult for me because the messages I had weren’t always ones someone wanted to hear nor did I want to deliver. Before this growth I didn’t even believe in this sort of thing. Now it’s a regular thing in my spiritual life. I think the most amazing thing is when my grandmother comes to talk to me in my dreams. I even had cousins I was really close to come see me in my dreams too. I don’t really tell a lot of people this stuff that I am saying because let’s face it people that don’t know about this sort of thing for themselves will give me a side eye.  Anyone that is a Christian should know that staying stagnant shouldn’t be an option for you, and if it is then you are cutting yourself off from some awesome experiences that only your growth and Gods power can bestow upon you. If I would have never stepped up and out then the growth that I experience wouldn’t have happened. I wouldn’t have a clearer understanding of who God is and the power that he embeds in each of His children. I am wowed every time God gives me a message for someone else and when I go and tell them they know exactly what I am talking about when I haven’t a clue. The only answer I have for that is that God chose to use me at that moment for that purpose. Now I have had people get mad at me or reject totally what I say…and my reply to that is always ok Lord I did what you said please let me sleep tonight. Lol I have even got to where I see a thing here and there for me but in all honesty my life dreams make me probably more nuts than getting messages for others. Each of us has a spiritual gift from God how big it grows is up to us. Don’t be afraid to be a growing spirit.